Behind every smile lies pain. It hurts so much faking this smile. Fooling everyone around me; letting them know I’m okay when I’m not. It hurts so much watching my friend drift away with someone else. I see her smile, reminding me that I once made her smile like that. Now Its someone else. How the feeling of jealousy makes the human mind go crazy. I literally feel my guts twist every time. How much longer can I last faking this smile?

Faking this smile gets harder and harder. Why am I hurting myself like this? I was the kind of person who doesn’t hold back the truth, but now I notice how much farther away I drift from the people most important to me every time I portray this bad habit. I lived long enough and lost broken pieces of my heart every time I lose a friend to say that helping a friend is a blessing and a curse.

Friends will be friends

Genuinely or not, they’re all the same

Eventually one will go their own way

You’ll be forced to take your own path as well

Things were happy when were all together

until LIFE separated us

I miss all my friends

I miss being the reason why they smile

Now they’re either in pain and sorrow, not enjoying the path they took

Or they’re already happy and smiling… but me not being the reason

Overall things will never be the same.

It hurts just thinking about it. Its gonna hurt when you need to move on